What made you stop being an addict?

This was February 2019.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

Recently, I cleared my JP Morgan coding round. Next, I received mail for a video interview. What kind of questions are asked in this round? How do I prepare myself?

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Why did you put a guy’s dick in your mouth the first time?

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

Why are men today so pussiefied?

I did it in my administrator's office.

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Why doesn't California have the tools, people, means to put out these fires even though they know there will be fires every year?

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

Why do you write?

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

And I can also talk to them now.

How did Madri, mother of Nakula and Sahadeva die?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

Why should the US public listen to Lauren Boebert, the queen of hypocrisy tell us, "We need morals back in our nation" when her real-time video is the heartbeat of immoral? Why does her audio not match her video?

Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

My girlfriend lied and said she never gave oral until me. She was very skilled. I’m upset with her lying. Do I dump her?

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

Read that again ☝️

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

When does a man tell a woman he has feelings for her?

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

How does the narcissist react when he realizes you no longer care?

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

Why do people always talk about Ohio as it's a dangerous city?

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

My cantankerous beagle is very badly behaved at the dog park and always starts barking at the other dogs. Would pepper spray be an effective method to correct his inappropriate behavior?

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.

What, when building a house, are the necessary wires (beside 120v) to future proof my house, Cat6, Coax, low voltage, and alarm wires?

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

And I DID IT EVERYDAY

What smell will you never forget?

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

If my lovely sister sleeps with my boyfriend, what should I do about her?

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

Just keep trying

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

But for me, I would say RUN away from it